Even celebrities have second thoughts about their work, including Beyonce, who revealed some intimate details behind her new self-titled album.
According to the Associated Press, the singer, who held a release party and director's screening for the album at the School of Visual Arts Theater Saturday in New York City, admitted having some doubts minutes before the surprise release
"I was terrified. I was so scared. I already envisioned like the worst things that could happen," Beyonce told the AP. "I was really nervous because this was a huge risk."
Without a regular press release, Beyonce's fifth album debuted at No. 1 on the Billboard charts this week, selling 617,000 units in the United States and more than one million albums worldwide, in a week's time, according to Billboard.com
After viewing the singer's 17 music videos, Beyonce, who arrived in a body-hugging black mini dress and matching over-the-knee black peep toe boots, headed to the stage to answer questions via Instagram, and reveal how the album was put together.
"I'm very private and I'm very respectful, and I think it just took me no longer being someone's child, once I became a mother, I felt like I could tear those fourth walls and I just felt like it was time," she told the audience, according to the AP. "I completely feel liberated."
The 32-year-old singer said she decided to be so open about her relationship with Jay Z on the album, stating that since becoming a mother, she's more comfortable in her own skin. The album includes 14 songs and 17 videos, and collaborations with her husband Jay Z, Justin Timberlake, Drake and her daughter, Blue Ivy.
During the social networking interview, Beyonce said she wrote treatments for music video ideas and handpicked the directors, most who were in attendance, E! News reported. According to the AP, the album is also the first to be released under the singer's own production company, Parkwood Entertainment, since parting ways with her father-manager, Mathew Knowles.
"I felt like I wanted follow in the footsteps of Madonna and be a powerhouse and have my own empire," Beyonce told the AP. "And (to) show other women when you get to this point in your career, you don't have to go sign with someone else and share your money and your success, you can do it yourself."
As for what the singer is hoping fans take away from the new album, she said, "Own your imperfections and all the things that make you interesting."
"I took all of my insecurities, all of my doubts, all of my fears and everything I've learned over the 17 years and I applied it into this project," she said. "But more than the music, I'm proud of myself as a woman....I refuse to allow someone to put me in anyone's box."
